Stupid Self Destruction
Revision as of 04:15, 9 June 2005 by Kunda (an offer i wish (sometimes) was made to me when i was younger)
what happends to you? newborns..born new and fresh empty canvas..before it is fashioned into canvas eyes unfocused belly breathing you knew how to just BE in liquid, like fish you knew without knowing everything new everything transition with it cascades of hormones and busy busy cells. - activity - sounds, nourishment, evacuations you grew and grew and ideas and information hit you like cell phone frequencies all the time until you tuned (down) into the receptive frequency and then social conditioning begins.. the politics upheaval of familiar unfolding flow suddenly these new 'processes' in your 'living room': shame punishment sin trauma
Thats not the end of-course..just the beginning of the end you learned how to ignore and neglect from that point on and cut down the amount of information you recieved from 'the world' gulped down microwavable colorful sweet looking food into your living furnace you inhaled fake tobacco into beautiful pink lungs, turning what was once cosidered a holy rite into a mockery a pretty pill to inhibit pain, the great teacher, by taking the sting out of the entry point of the knife as it goes in, and this way you forget the past
this stupid self destruction stupid? call it stupid and feed it shame this '''Ignorant''' self-destruction this darkness that is not evil just not illumined so with the resilienct of youth you sabotage the body and see no instant negative effect just a feeling of living above the world..euphoria. you hear the warnings..and mistake them for just more rules made by hypocritcal adults little do you know the more you partake in these practices the more you are limiting the functioning of your instrumentation what will make you learn? what will make you change course away from the iceberg? what, how, and when?
Bring your pain here bring it and spill it watch it and learn listen to the love that comes through (just as was done for me) its not mine, its not me it just '''IS''' look into your brain and see what happends when you think of courage take a deep breath and then do it right now surrender to the release and release to the surrender "die" your current ideas of cool, hip, pride of individuality, rebellion and break open and be as a little newborn again fresh and wide-eyed