Stupid Self Destruction

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A Retrospective:

what happends to you?
newborns..born new and fresh 
empty canvas..before it is fashioned into canvas
eyes unfocused 
belly breathing
you knew how to just BE in liquid, like fish
you knew without knowing
everything new
everything transition 
with it cascades of hormones and busy busy cells.
- activity - 
sounds, nourishment, evacuations
you grew and grew
and ideas and information hit you like cell phone frequencies 
all the time
until you tuned (down) into the receptive frequency
and then social conditioning begins..
the politics
upheaval of familiar unfolding flow
suddenly these new 'processes' in your 'living room':
shame
punishment
sin
trauma

A dance:

Thats not the end of-course..just the beginning of the end 
you learned how to ignore and neglect from that point on
 and cut down the amount of information you recieved from 'the world'
gulped down microwavable colorful sweet looking food into your living furnace
you inhaled fake tobacco into beautiful pink lungs, turning what was 
 once cosidered a holy rite into a mockery
a pretty pill to inhibit pain, the great teacher, by taking the sting out of the entry 
point of the knife as it goes in, and this way you forget the past


A Truth:

this stupid self destruction 
stupid? call it stupid and feed it shame
this '''Ignorant''' self-destruction
this darkness that is not evil
just not illumined 

so with the resilienct of youth 
you sabotage the body
and see no instant negative effect
just a feeling of living above the world..euphoria.
you hear the warnings..and mistake them for just more rules made by hypocritcal adults
little do you know the more you partake in these practices 
the more you are limiting the functioning of your instrumentation

what will make you learn?
what will make you change course away from the iceberg?
what, how, and when?

An offer:

Bring your pain here
bring it and spill it
watch it and learn 
listen to the love that comes through
(just as was done for me)
its not mine, its not me
it just '''IS'''
look into your brain and see what happends when you think of courage
 take a deep breath and then do it right now
surrender to the release
 and release to the surrender
"die" your current ideas of cool, hip, pride of individuality, rebellion 
and break open
and be as a little newborn again
fresh and wide-eyed